It's already the 4th day since I've been at penang here, alone.
Frankly, the feeling is not as good as how I've imagine...You know what? The feeling towards her came back. Some kind of miss and rely.
The good part is that, after we both broke up, I kinda knew what I want.
She is someone that I really rely on, so much...cause no matter in what condition I strongly believe that, she as my ex & best friend would never leave me and think that I'm annoying. Is this a good thought?
but..this trip makes me realize that, both of us have changed a lot..
It seems that we both exchange our personalities.
She turns to a talkative and outgoing person. Whereas I turn to a quiet and shy person. Sometime maybe she will think that I'm complicated and negative, and maybe some of the emo??
I believe that I'm different when we chat in fb, when we were still couple. I just doesn't want her to think that I've change. Or I suppose to say, I don't wanna she has a bad impression on me. Maybe should just keep the previous "me" on her mind.
Suddenly feel so helpless yesterday when I walking on the street..A person that I think I can actually rely on suddenly disappear. Gone so far..makes me feel like crying. I can no longer rely on her nor trust her.
SHIT! My thoughts are going to negative now!
The thing is that, my feeling towards her is already beyond a best friend but I can't do anything, cause I really really miss her and wish to see her. Another problem is, I think we have nothing to talk..and I have no idea where to go with her..She looks absolutely bored when we are together. So, I'm gonna hold myself not to call her out. That's all.
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